In my search for something that will inspire anything: dark_bingo.

mutation	forced soulbonding	aging	attacked by a creature	hello again
depression	love spell / potion gone wrong	sexual abuse	scars	self-harm
tentacles	clones	WILD CARD	outsiders	just this once
abduction / kidnapping	imprisonment	suicide (attempted or successful)	brainwashing	discovered
forced marriage	unable to perform	hazing	hostages	planet destruction

I'm starting to wonder what my choice in bingo challenges says about me - LOL.

I feel like my muses have crawled into a corner and died.

So... My angst_bingo card:

brainwashing	hostages	exile	body hatred	schizophrenia
deprogramming	the last time	ghosts	lacerations	selling your soul
masks and guises	bullying	WILD CARD	road trip	delirium
torture	head trauma	crucifixion	sensory deprivation	asphyxiation
courtship rituals	betrayal	therapy	restraints	sexual harassment

I haven't made icons in what felt like forever and wanted to play with textures. And finding out my thought-to-be-random ship has a fandom made me oh so giddy.

Credit me and don't use them as bases, if you're taking, plzkthanx.

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Title: The Greater Good
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: Kirk/McCoy, Sulu/Chekov, Spock/Uhura
Word Count: 29,020
Warnings: sex, angst (specifically in the context of depression and PTSD), medical and military stuff that should be read with suspended disbelief, lab rats (including non-graphic description of humane euthanasia), underage drinking (though Chekov argues that he's legal in Russia), and minor character (OC and canon) deaths
Summary: Doctor Leonard McCoy thinks he's getting by, working as both a surgeon and a researcher at UCSF Medical Center. A chance encounter with Lieutenant Jim Kirk - who's changed since they first met five years before, and not for the better - forces Leonard to face reality about his own situation while trying to keep Jim from heading down the same path.

Author's Notes: Thanks to blcwriter for all the hand-holding and coaxing, caitri for resorting to bribery to see this thing finished (I haven't forgotten!), flyingmachine for beta reading, and all the people who commented on the snippet I posted at the end of December (especially wolf_naked for leaving the original prompt this was inspired by even if I don't actually follow it), and the au_bigbang challenge for forcing me to finish this fic instead of letting it hang around on my hard-drive for an untold amount of time.

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6

Accompanying art for the story (including the city headers seen in the story) was done by thereshedances, so make sure to check it out here!



( The Greater Good, the Mix )

See? I still write fic! Once I get to post my au_bigbang, y'all will get to see what I've been engrossed in the last few months. I dream about the damn thing.

But in the meantime...

Title: Cheater
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Kirk/McCoy
Word Count: 710
Summary: Comment porn for jim_and_bones - Bones unfairly wins a prank war.

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( It started when Jim had 'accidentally' finished off the good bourbon in Bones' flask and refilled it with the cheap stuff, knowing Bones would notice but hoping it would be later rather than sooner. )

Title: Breaking It In
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Kirk/McCoy
Warnings: NSFW
Summary: For jim_and_bones based on my own image post, but who's complaining?

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( Bones, buckle up. )

These were all written for the drinks themed Flash Challenge over at jim_and_bones. The latter two are AUs and trying to convince me that they want to be fleshed out more.

Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Kirk/McCoy

Word Count: 331
Prompt: Dog's Nose

( The very small part of Leonard's brain that's awake on the cold December morning registers the door creaking open and the soft padding of footsteps across the carpet, heading towards the bed. )

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Word Count: 389
Prompt: Sea Breeze

( There's a stiff wind blowing in their favor, finally giving them the speed they need to return to port. )

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Word Count: 634
Prompt: Ward Eight

( Leonard knows that if he looked over at Jim, he would see that he has a white-knuckled grip on the steering wheel and is sitting ramrod straight. )

Title: Gasper
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Kirk/McCoy
Word Count: 1,400
Warnings: Mirrorverse, dubcon, bondage, breathplay
Summary: A pinch hit for the km_anthology prompt Mirrorverse - bondage/breathplay and combining it with sansets' Alphabet Meme prompt A is for Autoerotic - He fucks around, takes what is offered to him, but it's not enough to keep him from needing to jerk off with a gag down his throat and his nose pinched shut.

Thanks so much to echoinautumn for volunteering to read this over at the last minute. ♥

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( The first time it happens, Kirk's nineteen years old. )

Both written for the FML Flash Challenge at jim_and_bones, so they're angsty by nature (not to be confused with Naughty by Nature). Summary for each is the prompt that it was written for.

Title: Lock the Door, Kill the Light
Rating: Kirk/McCoy
Pairing: PG-13
Word Count: 805
Summary: "Offered to cook my best friend dinner and to give him a backrub after he'd had a really bad day. He laughed at me, said I just wanted to get into his pants, and told me to fuck off. I really just wanted to give him a backrub-- my day sucked too. FML."

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( Rubbing at tired eyes with his left hand, Leonard enters his access code with his right. )


Title: Ripping Off the Bandaid
Rating: Kirk/McCoy
Pairing: NC-17
Word Count: 1,115
Summary: "Today I promised myself I'd talk to him about this and figure out what we're doing. I ended up in a supply closet with my pants around my ankles and a dick in my mouth. FML."

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( His anxiety level is so high that Jim feels like he's going to vibrate out of his skin at any moment. )

Title: Desperate Men
Rating: Kirk/McCoy
Pairing: PG-13
Word Count: 2,030
Warning: starts off angsty but ends on an up-note, I promise
Summary: For jim_and_bones' Sweethearts Challenge, prompt #13 - Jim's newfound fame as the "savior of Earth" and the Face of Starfleet is both dragging him down and going to his head. Bones steps in and decides to remind him he's still "Jim Kirk, genius-level repeat offender" -- even if it means going to a bar at the ass-end of the Universe.

Author's Note: Some of you may recognize a part of this as something I'd previously written. I'd intended to do more with it but hadn't known what that was until this prompt.

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( Watching the solemn ceremony on the observation deck, Jim feels a confusing muddle of joy, relief, guilt, and nausea. )

Title: The Greater Good
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Kirk/McCoy
Word Count: 607
Warnings: preslash, this is a snippet from a larger modern day AU in my head that may or may not ever see the light of day full story can be found here
Summary: Inspired by this prompt at buckleup_meme and for the hc_bingo prompt claustrophobia and the au_abc prompt Y is for Yuppies - The first meeting of Leonard McCoy, surgeon, and Jim Kirk, helicopter pilot.

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( Leonard's standing next to the helipad, the wind whipping around his hair and lab coat, watching the Medivac chopper land. )

Title: Mood Killer
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Kirk/McCoy
Word Count: 2,885
Summary: This is my valiant attempt at combining this post at jim_and_bones with the hc_bingo prompt broken bones, and all for siluria's birthday, too! - Five times Jim tries to get Bones to have sex with him while sick or injured and one time he succeeds.

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( Leonard's starting to question his priorities at his decision to get Jim changed out of his cadet reds before dragging him to sickbay for medical treatment. )

Title: Shore Duty
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Kirk/McCoy
Word Count: 1,085
Warnings: it's really just a shameless excuse for porn
Summary: Inspired by this post at jim_and_bones and the hc_bingo prompt torture - Jim's on shore duty and bored as hell.

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( The break between tours is painful - Jim can understand why so many officers opt to teach at the academy during that time. )

For the hc_bingo prompt pneumonia.

Screencaps are from tasteofblame.

This features (in order of appearance) Lipton, Jackson, Webster, Speirs, and Luz.



( Ah, what are you sorry about? )